A new yet familiar season...

This morning, after an emotional melt down last night, I was reminded of Hosea 6:1-3 which is going to be a point of focus for me over the next little while.    “Come, let us return to the Lord.  For He has torn us, and He will heal us; He has wounded us, and He will bind up our wounds.  He will revive us after two days,  and on the third day He will raise us up so we can live in His presence.  LET US STRIVE TO KNOW THE LORD. His appearance is as sure as the dawn. He will come to us like the rain, like the spring showers that water the land.”  (Hosea 6:1-3)  This is my goal...that I may strive to know the Lord and allow Him to have His way in me each and every day!

 

A month into the new year, I began experiencing intermittent pain in various joints.  By March, I was having low-level, constant pain in both shoulders as well as intermittent pain in my knees, ankles, wrists and occasionally my hips.  I started on pain meds, did some physical therapy for an issue with my neck I was also having and had a couple appointments with a rheumatologist in Kansas City.  By mid-May, my pain level increased to a point that I could no longer continue working and it was getting more and more difficult to live on my own.  At the beginning of June, I made the decision to move back to Texas where my family would be better able to help me out and flew my mom up the last weekend in June to pack up the car and make the drive home with me.  We arrived early on July 1^st and I enjoyed some time with my family before returning to Kansas City for a couple weeks with my friends and a follow up visit with my doctor.  In the last two weeks that I’ve been home, I’ve had many appointments with various specialists.  The rheumatologist in Kansas City felt there was enough history to say that I have an auto-immune disease though it could not be categorized any further than that.  However, the rheumatologist here is running some additional tests looking into possible blood clotting disorders that would not be considered auto-immune.  My general orthopedic that did my previous surgeries referred me to different specialists.  Though, I am having pain in my shoulders, the bone is still intact and has not begun to collapse so the shoulder specialist does not recommend surgery at this time.  However, the next step for me if the pain increases and/or continues longer than I can handle will be a partial replacement where he would remove the dead bone and put a cap on it which he compared to a crown on a tooth.  But we agreed that we are not ready for that step at this point so will continue to manage the pain with medication as best we can.  Because I have spinal stenosis and bulging discs in my neck, I was also sent to see a spinal surgeon who also agreed that surgery is not the best option for me at this point.  I have just received new meds from both of these specialists this week that will hopefully help with my pain management.  I would appreciate your prayers for my health as I struggle with some of these issues again. 

 

 

I spent nearly 2 years in Kansas City which did not look like I expected it to look, but was good nonetheless!  I am finding it difficult to put into words all that has come from my time in Kansas City, and realize I do not fully understand it all myself, but I am very thankful for that season of my life though it was not an easy one.  I developed some incredible friendships with people that will be a part of my life for many years to come, even though we have gone our separate ways at this point.  My heart for worship was stirred and I spent the last few weeks taking piano lessons from a great teacher who taught me so much in a short period of time.  As I master all that she introduced me to, I hope to start lessons with someone here to move forward in my ability to worship the Lord.  I don’t know what all the next year holds or will look like, but I am hopeful and expectant as I settle into yet another new season.  Though familiar in many ways, it is not the same and I trust that the Lord has a purpose and plan in all that I am going through and has a good plan for my life (Jer. 29:11).  Part of that plan, I believe, is returning to India next summer to begin spending extended time on the mission field each year with half the year at home.  While in the States, I will spend time with family and friends as well as be involved in short term missions in some way.  Again, I don’t know exactly what that will look like, but seems to be the direction I’m heading at this point.