Let the blooming begin!

For quite some time now (as in a few years at least), I have wrestled with the issue of identity.  Struggling to truly comprehend who God says I am and live accordingly.  There have been some key points along the way where I have stopped in an "AHA" moment that settled a little piece of the truth in my heart of who I am in Christ.  But as I look at my day to day life, I do not yet see the changes I would have thought these truths would have brought about. 

"Then the time came when the risk it took to remain in a tight bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin 

This quote really struck me as a great picture of this process I've been going through.  Though my automatic responses are not showing any great evidence of change, the effects to my heart have been increasing and I feel that I am reaching that point of it being more painful to stay as I am.  I so desperately want to change!  I want to love well!  I want to be all that God created me to be!  I want to accomplish all that He has called me to!  This is the desire that has been building and though fear still holds me back a lot, it is losing its grip!  I don't know what "blossoming" will look like for me, but I do feel like I am finally on the verge!  That is both exciting and terrifying!!!