Waiting

I looked back at 2009 on New Year's Eve and had to say it was a good year.  I looked ahead to 2010 with excitement as I prepared to leave for 3 1/2 months in India.  It's been about 6 weeks since I was scheduled to leave but faced the disappointment of staying.  Only 5 days after I would have left, Haiti, a country I have been to several times, was devestated by a massive earthquake.  My heart's automatic response was I wanted to be there to do something, anything, to help those that were suffering.  But I found myself left behind as others I know went to help those we love in this country.  Today, I again had to stay home while others I know headed back for a couple more weeks.  It has been a such a struggle to feel so called to the mission field and yet not be able to get there.  I trust that God has a plan and am trying to stay patient in the waiting.  I am hoping He allows me to go soon, or shows me what else He has in store.  But I will continue to press on to know Him more as I wait for Him to bring clarity!  II Peter 3:8-9 ...do not let this one fact escape your notice, beloved, that with the Lord one day is like a thousand years and a thousand years is like one day. The Lord is not slow about His promise but is patient toward you...